Miss Q&A grand champion Juliana Parizcova Segovia reveals that he is afraid of going back to the life that he had before he rose to fame by winning ‘It’s Showtime‘s’ Miss Q&A.
On a Magandang Buhay episode on Tuesday, October 13, Juliana mentioned that he suffered from anxiety thinking about his life and career as an artist after the shutdown of the ABS-CBN network.
However, he said that Melai Cantiveros, one of the hosts of the morning talk show, was one of the people who helped him and gave him advice.
“Hindi ko talaga siya alam na anxiety ang tawag doon. May mga halos gabi-gabi na umiiyak ako, hindi ako nakakatulog. Parang alingawngaw sa utak ko ‘yung mga kinakatakutan ko na baka mangyari. Hanggang one time nagkausap kami ni momshie Melai. Tapos in-open ko sa kanya na may mga gabi na ganito-ganyan. Siya nagsabi na, ‘momsh, anxiety ‘yan,” Juliana explained.
He said that thinking about people who show neither concern nor judgment towards his dilemma added in building up his anxiety.
“Parang isa sa na-realize ko noong quarantine, ang daming taong puwedeng pagsabihan mo nang pinagdadaanan mo pero hindi lahat sila may pakialam. Hindi ka nila pagtatawanan, hindi ka nila huhusgahan, pero wala rin silang pakialam. ‘Yung ganun. So parang dumadagdag siya sa bigat kapag alam mo na ‘yung pinagsasabihan mo ay walang pakialam,” he said.
Juliana admitted that the roots of his anxiety came from his fear of going back to his old life as an ordinary person. He even mentioned that he refuses to let his mother work because he wanted to let her live a comfortable life.
“Kasi talagang hindi ka makakatulog. Ang hirap. Sabi ko natatakot ako baka bumalik ako sa buhay namin dati. ‘Yun ang lagi kong nasa isip,” said Juliana.
“Parang after winning Miss Q&A parang pinangako ko na sa sarili ko na hanggang malakas ang nanay ko, ako ang gagawa ng lahat. … Kaya nung sinabi niya sa akin na maghahanap ako ng labada para at least dagdag, hindi talaga ako pumayag kasi parang nakokonsensiya ako bilang anak. Parang, ‘hoy Juliana, nag-aartista ka tapos ‘yung nanay mo pinaglalabada mo’ parang ganun. Di ko alam kung pride, pero hindi ko talaga kaya. Pero wala pong masama sa paglalabada,” he added.
Previously, Juliana also talked about his anxiety during his appearance in the online show ‘This Is Showbiz.’
He said that with the shutdown of the Kapamilya network, he is afraid his career as an artist was only short-lived. He said that he was lost as to what he would do and would often cry at night.
“Paano ba ako magsisimula? Ano ba ’to? Babalik na ba ako sa dati kong buhay? Every night yon, naiiyak ako. Nagdarasal ako. Sabi ko, ‘Lord, ano ‘to? Bakit parang ang bilis? Ano ba ito? Patikim lang o may iba pa Kayong plano sa akin?’” he said.
Juliana turned from being a Beauty Queen into an actor when he appeared in the hit TV series ‘FPJ’s Ang Probinsyano.‘ He said that his inspiration to pursue a career in acting was cut-off with the ABS-CBN’s shutdown.
“Nagka-anxiety ako. Ang dami ko pa sanang planong gawin kung nagtuluy-tuloy lang siya. Kasi meron ng mga write-ups na noon sa akin na, ‘In fairness kay Juliana when it comes to acting,’ mga ganyan. May mga nababasa kami sa dyaryo na ganu’n nung nakikita nila ako sa Probinsyano,”
“So, nu’ng time na yon… paano ko pa ito matutuloy? Paano ko pa gagalingan?” asked Juliana.
Regarding his P1 million prize that he won from the Miss Q and A competition, Juliana revealed that he spent most of it in setting a comfortable life for his family but revealed that it was not enough for him to buy a car.
“Akala nila kapag may one million ka na, talagang milyonaryong-milyonaryo ka na na pwede ka nang bumili ng bahay. Tinatanong nila ako kung bakit wala akong sasakyan.
“Para sa akin lang, iba iba naman tayo ng priority tsaka ng prinsipyo. Kailangan ko ng sasakyan kasi hindi na siya luxury sa akin, eh. Kailangan talaga sa trabaho, eh,” she ended.
